Its over

WOoohooo....
finally,finally,finally!!!!
SPm is over!!!!
my god? izzit a dream?or... or...
anyway, spm is over....is over....in my life..
arh....long time dint update my blog....damn miss it~
bt juz,
im lost....
i duno wht to do....
in the following day,wht can i do?
n...
hw should i face every1?
honestly,
i dun have the feel....
i dun feel lik goin anywhere....or anyplace...
i juz hope i can be wif her....
thts wht i hope...
or i juz too desperate? mayb....i duno
bt juz.....let thgs go on naturally.....i cant do anythg...
juz let time pases...
n let it b.
LETS ROCK N ROLL!!!!! WoooWOooHooooooo~

LAST DAY BEFORE SPM!!!!

Juz finished my history study...Im so Happy now~
TOMORROW!!!!
TOMORROW!!!!
I've been waiting for it since january of 2008~
Wht can i say except thn HAPPY???
Finally its the end of my secondary life....
Thx god,
Thx to all my best friends
Thx to all my best teachers~
I LOVE ALL OF U!!!!
without u all,
without me!!!
Im extremely happy now....Cant even type properly~
SO,
Can u feel it?
SPM!!!!
Im so happy to have u as my target~
I will achieve my target ....no matter wht,
Thts the only way I can prove who I am!!!

Count down for THE HIGHEST MOMENT!!!

Its been ages i dint update my blog~
So,
wht should i do now?i guess it is not a gud time for me to sit infront the computer n type thgs lik this....
bt i cant stand it anymore,its boring....
after reading thousand of words....I cant stand for it anymore....I gt to rest for a moment.
Now im juz praying for miracle lik wht i did last few months.
N it reli works...
Miracle would happen~hahaha
Ok,Lets come back to the title...
erm...Overall, its a gd relaxation~
Hang out wif frends~
Escape frm schul~
mayb thts wht i reli want to do ? who knows?
btw~~ Spm is juz around the corner~Quite anxious
The closer the spm, the more i realized tht im nt well prepared yet...
Juz let everythg happen naturally,
Mayb there is a miracle, who knows ? like wht i said?
nothig is impossible, juz do it cool !!!!

大快乐~

好爽!!!!

又是一个快乐的一天....为清清庆祝了生日过后回到家的我 ....开始我的回想日记.

事情回到了早上8.45

开始了我们的庆祝....先是蛋糕伺候...后是生日歌~

过后就开始到放学的那段时间....好难受....太久了吧~~~

5,4,3,2,1....走吧!!!

噫....???老爸怎么来了??艾呀,无所谓啦,照杀!!!上车吧....哈哈...

不好意思....因为将你们抛弃在那儿自行回家冲涼....哈哈.

三点到了....进场吧...刚开始便点了一大堆的歌曲~超夸张的...但,无所谓啦,开心就好.

SAM 来到了~热烈的欢迎~

过后又是蛋糕时间~TIRAMISU CHeeSe Cake还不赖吧...清清还被逼站在桌上发表感言喔!都怪我....哈哈~~

开心就好咯...

过后又是疯狂时间~

站上椅子又是跳又是叫....快乐!!!

大家唱得好不快乐....真好....

不过当我们刚开始想玩时,就到了时间.....

但最重要的是,还是要问问今日的主角....

快乐吗??

希望你快乐和开心哦~~

快乐!!!!

哇....我有史以来最开心的一天竟然是昨天....
考完试,出去玩....一个字----爽!!!!(可惜有些"人"没有去哦~~~)哈哈,替他们感到悲哀~~

早上一大早就爬起来了,可能是太兴奋了吧...

先用过早餐便到KTM 等候火车,到了下一站才与小权&爱人见面...哈哈

过后我们便搭了一小时半的车程到SUNWAY....一到那边便带着爱人与小权到SUSHI KING用餐...

吃完后开始玩"寻人游戏"...

太开心了,一大班人出去...好爽~~~你们都快乐吗?希望你们都有尽兴的玩到...
我人生的第一次(溜冰),竟然奉献了给昨天~~好开心哦...我终于会溜了!!!!好心啦,会溜冰有什么了不起?但我是无师自通喔!!!!太开心了.
拍了好多的回忆照片....留下了一个个的美好回忆....大概会牢牢记着吧....相信我会~~
晚餐方面有点对不起你们啦~~真的没想到那些餐厅会爆满~~让你们走了那么远,真的不好意思....
然后又强逼你们拍照片....哈哈,一个个都累坏了吧....
只是为什么要分成两批人马呢?这样一起去有什么意思?
但总而言之,我感到很快乐啦,
谢谢你们哦~~~我爱你们~~

PS:有什么做的不对,请多多见谅~~

雨也,梦

什么是梦?梦里所发生的是真实的吗?如果那不是真实的....那和现实又有什么不同呢? 现实生活也不过是一场梦罢了....一场短暂的梦...美梦惊醒,你什么也不是.
又是一个雨夜....这样的日子也不知过了多久....转眼看向那指着十二点钟的手表...想着"啊....已是十二点了....时间过得还真是快"说罢,便伸伸懒腰,拿起那冰冷的咖啡....慢慢一步步走向那窗口.....
我轻轻的拨开那海蓝色的窗帘....看着那明亮的街灯,当中还穿插着细细的雨水...听着那清脆的雨声...
渐渐回想到了当天......
也不记得是哪个夜了....我被载往一个陌生的地方....当时的情景也正好是下着大雨.我不认识你,你也不认识我....我们之间就像是两个陌生人....没有交谈.
但,在那雨天,我遇见了你....也许不可思议...但我好像在哪儿见过你...
对了,你就是那个出现在我梦里的人....对,难怪我好像觉得在哪儿遇见过你....突然,我想起了"屋顶"这首歌....
很不可思议!!!
你就像我第一次看见你那样...文静且美丽.....
回想当中我们一起交谈过的话,做过的事...促使我深深的爱上了你....但,爱人是痛苦的.....

啊.....
雷声将我从回忆中拉了回来,手中的咖啡不小心倒了出来.....梦醒来....还是那样....现实也不过是一场梦,只是.....比较长罢了....
好了,该继续努力了....加油吧!!!
你是我唯一的梦,把你留在我身边
将会是我一生都想做的梦.....

Frustrated

Sunday
Raining day
Moody
After came back frm tuition,I sat on my chair n think....Wht i reli 1?2 hours past.....no conclusion at all...n this make me feel very frustrated. So, wht i reli want???can anyone tell me? No mood study at all....M I a useless guy?
I think so....IM very useless...cant settle everythg by my own...
Sumtimes,I reli feel like commiting suicide...
Dun force me to do somethg i dun lik to do...
U noe my style rite?
Actually, Wht im gud in?ntg rite?
Frustrated....
Wht m i duin now????
wht can i do now???
If u were me,wht would u do now?
Im waiting....waiting for the day tht u will c me....

Enjoy....

It was the best day for this holiday!!!

After busying for whole week,finally i can take a break n do wht i want.....Happy....Bt sumthg makes me feel very pressure which is I havent finish my Bio ,Phy,Add maths,Sej subject.....Dun worry, everythg will b fine....(I hope).

wake up at 9.30 am, the 1st thg i wanna do is, finish my drama series which only left 1 episode....I use the fastest speed to finish it....FInally, It ends wif a happy ending which satisfied me....Haha.

10.30am, after finish "make up"...I walked down frm my room n starts to wait for my mum n dad....

11.00am, cousin reaches my house n talk for a while.

11.20am, our journey of "eat" begins....wahahahahaha

Destination: star hill gallery , JOgoya....

The 1st thg i ate was UNAGI!!!! Awesome! This was the 1st time i ate such big unagi....WHOLE PLATE!!!!

After enjoying the whole plate of unagi....I can feel the heat comes frm my stomach....

Bside tht, V oso ordered Alaska Cod fish, Dragon prawn, eveythg that has a name 'fish",n i drank several types of alcohol drinks.....

Blissful!!! this is the oni word i can use to describe the feeling......

AFTER 3 hours enjoyed our food.....It is the time for us to leave.....V have to say bye bye to JOGOYA......Bt doesnt matter, cos my stomach cant fit in anymore....not even a single piece of small cake.....

After tht, we went to midvalley for shopping.....

bt, ntg v can buy frm there bcos all of us keep thinking of sleeping....

after walking here n there....finally my sis decided to go on dinner....MY GOD!!!!!

wht type of stomach of my sis.....?R they monster?

The worst thg is.....v went for JAPANESE FOOD AGAIN!!!!!

errrr......feel lik vomiting.....

by the way, v oso ordered drinks .....green tea....n a bowl of shoyu ramen which shared by 4 of us.....WAO!!!!can u imagine? a cup of green tea n a bowl of shoyu ramen which shared by 4 person? tht was a funny experience...n v reli enjoy tht moment....

After tht , v decided to go home n the time already showed 7.40pm.....

whn v walked down to the ground floor, i realise there was sumthg tht i 12 buy.....

SO,I use the speed of "light" ,run towars tht department n ask for the product......

OK,I was so happy after i get the thing i want.....BT!!!!whn i walked to the counter......OMG!!!!HELL LONG!!!! the row was.......This was the 1st time i feel lik dying q-ing in a row which is such long.....

After 30 minutes, i can feel tht god is still around me.....

At the end of the day, i conclude sumthg....

I used 5 minutes to walk frm south court to north court....bt it takes me about 30 minutes of Q-ing......

Now...Im back....wif loads of homework which i have to pass up tomorrow morning.....

The time now is 10.00pm.......

Can u all predict my future?Blissful,happiness.....T.T

Complete

It is raining heavily.....Look out frm the window,water falls from the sky....everythg is just like a rain...Small,Tiny,bt it gives a sad feeling.....
Is it a suitable time for me to sit infront the computer n write blog? I don't think so. Every1 is sitting on the chair n facing loads of books..... Except me... A guy who is useless in this world. Doin ntg for the country n human....Everythg easy come n easy go. U will never noe wht is the ending n who is the 1 to b wif u till the end.
Quite pity......whn I listen a song named " grass ring " from Yuming n Jane. I love this song although tht song nt reli suits me. Anyway, after turning left n right , front n bhind.....I finally realise wht i reli want.
But, everythg is goin to put on a fullstop. Archieve our dreams.... I guess we will never contact each other again. Is reli sad.....Bt wht can i do? ntg can b done. Hope everythg goin nicely n hope u live happily .
WHo is the 1 will b wif u untill the end of ur life?
Who is the 1 will b wif me untill the end of my life?

NO 1 can tell.....
Anyway, always smile n happy. This is the oni wish from me.
LETS COMPLETE OUR DREAM WIF COLOURFUL LIFE !!!!!

Cold rain

I love rain...
Cold n sad....No one Knows wht is happening in the rain....perhaps there is a person will stand infront u n give u a hand...n,
hug u too...
But....everythg is just an illusion....Im always alone ....Tears come out frm eyes like usual....No one knows..
Thx god.....
It is a big rain....cloud turns to dark...No one c me standing alone in the big rain....No one cares about me too, although i know this since tht day....But, I
still cannot accept...Im just too weak....n,
useless too.
Thanks god for giving me such a ....life.
Im happy wif my life,Perhaps.
Mayb this is wht im expacting.
Or this is the way of my life?
U will never learn to appreciate unless u lose sumthg,I guess i lose it---time n chance.If i can know u earlier,if i can get close to u earlier...But,wht have i done?
I guess,This is the only life i should deserve .
In ppl's eyes,yeah....im a happy man n talk frankly....but, how many person in this world noe me well?Or i just dun want to let any1 noe me?
Mayb im waiting for the person...Or mayb i just dun wanna admit u r the person....
U come across my life,bt i dint appreciate....
Protect?M i protecting myself?
I dun have an authority to talk.... I just wanna stay inside ur heart. Listen to u,think for u,reserve everthg u want ,do everythg for u. Although i noe i cant do anythg now....Atleast,
I hope I can protect u from being loneliness,
hug u,kiss u n say

"I love u"

The BOy

Once upon a time,
There is a big family named John's family,there are more thn 30 relatives in the family. Eldest is 23 n the smallest is only 5 . Back to 19**, the first son was born in the hospital....Every1 was so happy wif the boy.....Bt, tht is the begining of the story.
Every1 says this little boy as the smartest boy in the family. yeah, the boy is very clever ,n looks not bad too....every1 was proud wif the little boy n same thg goes to the boy's parents.
As time goes by, the little boy is getting bigger n bigger, Starts to talk abt his own opinion,how he thinks n how he feels.
All ppl feel fed up wif him n starts to escape him....
So,
The boy lives unhappily for more thn 10 years....
Untill 1 day, he meets his 1st best friend in his life....his friend changed him....Interms of mental,physical....
They r so gud frends...(in ppl's eyes) Bt,
one day....this best frend betrayed him....he did sumthg tht the boy cannot forgive him. Tht makes him dun 12 belive in frends anymore.
Yeah,this boy live wif a life tht dun have true frends.....can u imagine tht?
Frends tht come across in the boy's life is just lik using n betraying partnership....
After use,Throw away.....Whn need it, ask them back...
The boy met his first gal frend in primary school....She makes him feel lik goin to schul everyday n tht gal leave a gud impression in the boy's mind....
gud thgs will never last long....Soon,Everythg around the boy has gone...Like a wind....Disapear in the sky.
Bt thn the boy conclude sumthg frm the event, he blives in gals more thn guys....why?bcos in his life,too many guys betrayed him....tht is why he feels more comfortable to b wif gals.

story 2 b continue....

Shame+Tired

HAhaha..
New name among my friends...Antigravity...
WAh....Shame....Called out by the lecturer n make fun wif my hair...Aiya...
Although it is quite funny....bt i dint pay attention wif wht he said(I mean whn he is talking abt my hair la,Cos looking at sumthg)...
hehe
I just noe my frends told me abt wht antigravity stuff...
The seminar was funny....laugh 4 2 hours continously....Im sure every1 in the hall agree wif me.
Erm,
QUite lame today....n
Tired too.
Walk here n there....North n South, West n EAst....Now i noe,how tired is our teacher.....
i counted....Today I walked more thn 5 times to 5th floor(our clss is located highest in tht building) name it as Building B ...thn,walked more thn 3 times to Building A which is located north to our building.....Bleeding....
Main purpose is?
FOr the signatures.....Omg.....I wait wait wait..finally get all my signatures b4 1.15....luckily...
VERy tired now....My Leg almst burn...
So,
Sleep 4 2 hours 1st ....heehee....wake up tuition lu...
(havent finish my tuition homework)....

Feelings

Ahhhh......Depressed!!!!
Im so unhappy....n sad.
OMG, Trial exam is just around the corner bt im still enjoying my life.....Wht kind of attitude hah? Just finish my piano exam. FEel like ...erm.....dunno how to describe...tot it will b an easy test 4 me...who knows.....Ah, Wht m i duin recently? Anyway,ntg can b done....Pray 4 miracle lol....>.<
Haiz....just wanna say:who the freak u think u r?!!!?! U noe wht is the meaning of permission? COme on,DUn think u r everythg.....u r just ntg in my heart...n dun ever think tht u r pretty/handsome...Is nt suitable 4 u...Too much, u r just too much...
I cant stand anymore n im goin to run off frm this world.....Im just too lazy to ply wif u(childish)
N same thg goes to u....
Dun think u can control me.....Make urself clear....Who is controlling who now....
DUn think i duno how u think, U r just a piece of " S**t".....
Nt worth 4 me to think even 1 second in my daily life....
If i were u, i will jump off frm 6th floor n rest in the hospital ....
wait wait wait.......
SPM.....Goddess....
Both of U r my oni target now!!!!! I will achieve my target!!!!
HEM~~~~~

(sry for rude words.....Bt i just cant stand tht person anymore)

梦里的约定

(PS:现时生活虽不会发生,但偶尔想一想还蛮不错的.虽然我们互相认识,但关系似乎还没到达那个地步,但我竟会梦见你....真的好不可思议!!!但我相信你我的相遇绝不是偶然.)

不记得是第几回的梦,
在那个梦....你我相遇....在那茫茫人海中....我不认识你,你不认识我...就这样的向前与向后走...也没正眼的对望...只是陌生人...

你....
我....

互不相识. 但,一次的懈垢....我认识了你...而你当然也认识我...不记得那是第几个世纪...世界即将毁灭....你站在那条路的前段....而我站在路的后半段....互相的对望....人潮来来往往....这儿那儿的跑着.....静止的只是你我两人.....你我像是有了默契,朝着对方前进...当我们面对面互望的那一刻,多么希望那世界会停止转动,时间是静止的...好让你我能有更多的时间多谈一些话.....

大地正在摇晃着....
人们都前往那大厦避难....留下了我们....

我们十指紧扣着,眼神对望着....

从你口中说出了那一句话:"能认识你真好",便将我推开了....
再告诉我:"下次的见面....是,一定会见面.....不管是在哪个世纪....哪个世界...."

这是你我的约定.....

我:"对,我们一定会再见面....不管在哪个世界,哪个地方....我都一眼能认出你,记得一定要等我.....这是我们的约定"
不论在天南地北....

"我爱你"

你我同时说出.....
便各自向前与向后走.....

冰冷的思想

很懊恼....

不知该做些什么....近来,压力蛮大的...钢琴考试,预考,SPM.....很多事困扰着我....想逃,却不知该逃向哪一个世界...很想到一个谁都不会认识我的地方,从新开始,也从心开始.....最近的我到底是在想些什么?脑袋时常是一片空白的....我.....开始了.....

火....

开始燃烧了....

雪,

同时间的下起了....

眼神开始冰冷.....脑袋开始残忍....时间将开始跑动....行动将会为此证明一切....

期待事情会如我所预期的一样发展....但,不管如何....事情也一定会如我预定的一样.....一切都只能照我的计划开跑.....时间将作为一个见证....所有的东西都犹如一场赌注....

那冰冷的世界也该画上一个等号了...

燃烧的火也该是时候灭了.....

何时才能找到那心灵的寄托.....

只能不停的往上爬....哪怕得借助别人的力量.....

爬....

到那最顶端......

我将证明.....

我的心.

自己

谢谢...

这句话,有多久没听到了....?最后一次的谢谢是何时?静思了一段时间...

发觉我一直以来所做的,想的...都是错误的....让人反感....让人讨厌....为了自己利益的事做了多少?损害人利益的事情又做了多少?自己也不知为了多少事情而烦恼.....

但,近来.....我有种找回当初自己的感觉....有种"我回来"了...的感觉....因为...

我找到了那个会对我说"谢谢"的人.....

吓....我有种受宠若惊的感觉.....有种隔了好久都没出现的字眼出现....

当你问我....为何我对你那么好时....我也不知道该如何回答....这应该是我的性格吧...老实说...我以前蛮喜欢帮人的...但,好像每次都让人误会,并有些事情的发生令我360度改变....但奇怪的是我竟然就只喜欢帮你....真的好奇怪...可能是你那开朗的笑声导致的吧....有时过度的帮忙反而令那人反感...但你肯定不会吧....

对不起......时常用你要我帮忙的事情来威胁你....但,你知道的吧....我只是想关心你罢了.....

有时....面对你我有种莫名的亲切感....那份亲切感我竟不能在别人身上得到...甚至是我的死党....很

奇怪....在你面前我都以最轻松的自己面对....什么面具也不戴...为何呢?

其实在你之前,我也有类似的朋友.....但结果我被背叛了....过后,我变得自私自利....不喜欢帮人了...但你让我感觉像是回到了自己.....好意外你竟然是那个让我有所改变的人....哈哈...可能你自己都不知道吧...

还记得我们地一次见面的时候吗?哈哈?还记得我们第一次的谈话吗?

但,好像到现在也还在被他们捉弄.....

你....让我有种很奇怪的亲切感....是我不能从别人身上得到的....但你也不要那这个人要点来得寸进尺哦....

慧,你看我对你多好....竟然让你出现在我的世界内....哈哈

但,你千万别误会哦...哈哈哈

自然

星星布满了整片天空......
莲花....出于泥而不染.....
望着那绿油油的青草....
享受那大自然的微风.....
看着那成群结队的鸟儿....
不断的在那片蓝天上你来我往的歌唱呢....
世界充满了爱.....充满了希望.....人们每天忙碌的上班,读书,工作....根本没时间望那美好的风景....
想一想....你有多久没看那片蓝天了,多久没听那鸟儿歌唱了....多久没躺在那草地上午睡了?
隔了好久好久了吧.....

每天忙碌的生活....到头来得到了什么?快乐....还是幸福?
今天的我仿佛有了小小的改变....不去上课....不去念书....专著的弹着那钢琴....想再次将我一手一脚锻炼出的技巧再次拿回来....<前阵子因某些小事而感觉好像弹钢琴的技巧都没了>.....我反复不断的练习....感情....技巧....都好像生疏了....没关系,技巧可以慢慢锻炼....但,感情呢?到现在都还没找到.....好无趣啊....算了....让他去吧.....从钢琴座走开....到外面看看天空.....好蓝好蓝....某方面来看世界好像还蛮平静的....
但我的世界呢.....黑暗将阳光包围了.....所有的东西好像都塌了下来.....正在进行维修呢....
就算能完全维修好....但那黑暗的天空呢?该如何将太阳拉出来呢?
在哪里跌到就必须在哪里爬起来....但,"哪里"究竟去了哪里?

明天就要面临考试了....心情好像还蛮平抚的....
紧张的感觉都跑哪儿去了....?
都跑向大自然了...

等待奇迹的发生吧...
但我的"奇迹"应该不知道吧....

心痛

快乐,

是什么滋味..?难过,又是什么感觉?

尝过了快乐的滋味,还有谁愿意体验那难过的感觉?开心与伤心的原头到底是哪里呢?今天的我,找到了.....

那伤痛.....快乐.....我都找到了...看清了...但,我不能接受这个残局....对我而言...实在是太残忍了....

你...你...你....还有你.....为什么?....为什么?为什么你要这样肋杀我的快乐....为何你要将我那晴天般的心用那一片黑布给遮盖着....黑暗....是什么世界?光明,是什么世界.....

当你习惯了那黑暗的世界....就再也不会想到那光明的世界去了.....

解铃还须系铃人....但,我所找寻的那个系铃人,在哪方呢?

哭,又能解决什么?笑,又能让你解决什么?开心,只是表面....伤心,又必须隐藏....那,有什么意义?谁可以告诉我....

我难过....不是因为难过而难过....我快乐,不是因为快乐而快乐.....但....当我独自一人面对这些事情时...又有哪个人愿意站出来跟我一起度过呢?我可以说....没有!

多可悲的人生.....

当你必须将所有不开心的事情一力扛下的那个过程....你将充分体会...什么是痛....心里的那根刺,想拔也拔不掉...唯有继续将他摆在你心里的中央......

让他每天刺你一下.....

直到你.....

不行的那一刻....

因为.....

帮你拔开心里的那根刺的人.....

永远不会出现......

如果我能回到从前....我会,

选择不认识你

不是因为我后悔,

而是我不能面对....

没有"你"的结局......

独旋, 名 , 了

(自创诗.....如写得不好.....请多多见谅...)

独旋

风中舞起花雨泪;
连绵细雨间不断;
耳旁旋起东风嘨;
又听酒保萧长鸣;
人朝往往名与利;
酒不醉切人自醉;
独为王者一人旋
着那孤单洒泪歌.

名

耳边响起东风破
人朝拥挤人自利
王风旋起刀与刃
琴声悠悠流人间

了

泪水洒尽名与利
心底象是水长流
多少雨夜独落泪
看似一时一时了

生日星

生日星
亮晶晶.....

对,

生日星....就是跟别人与众不同.....就象是一颗正在发光发亮的耀眼星星....深得人心.
数年前....当你还没降临人间.....当你还是一颗星星时,不停的在天空闪耀着,看着人间的一切.....但,
这时, 怀胎九月的女人将你带来这个充满朝气的世界.....天上的一颗耀眼星星降落了!! 这意味着.....一条新生命诞生于世了....那就是你!!!
呱呱坠地的你,什么也不知道.....什么也不撩.....但将你带领到这世界的两人......成了你的父母......在你人生给予你最大帮助的两人......

七月......
狮子座.....
强悍却不做作,有时却像个小女人......完全符合了你-----颖颖的性格....
刚开始,你学会了如何爬行....再来就是开口说话.....走路...都一一被你克服了....学习...变得不再是一个问题, 一路都保持着优越的成就.....
这想必就是你吧.....

生日过得如何?有没有收到许多的礼物?
想必一定很多吧....大美女叻....哈哈
我没有反口....说到做到....哪怕是今天的最后一分钟....

最后,祝你身体健康....学业猛进.....都是些老套的话啦.....
也祝你一年比一年美丽....变得更有魅力....哈哈

雨

雨....

轻轻的打在脸上....湿答答的...

视线已变得模糊了...只见那双双对对的伙伴迅速的走向大门.....想叫....却叫不出声....唯有等待着一个愿意为你撑伞的人的出现...

你那美丽的轮廓吸引了我的目光...我忍不住将我的眼神扫向你的方向....跟别人不一样.....你独自一人呆在角落.....象是在等待些什么似的...

眼泪从你眼眶流出.....

时间, 停留在那一刻....多希望时间真的能够停下....停下让我细心的观察....停下让我认真的思考.....真的那么不切实际吗?

雨...

越下越大.....撑伞的人始终还没出现....你等待的那个人似乎也还没出现....心开始慌了....是发生了什么事吗?是出了什么意外吗?......你那眼神仿佛透露出了这些话语.....我想上前问候....却不知该从哪儿找勇气....就这样...默默的看着.....

晴天似乎还不愿露面....彩虹似乎还躲在那灰暗的云朵内.....

光,被朵朵的乌云掩盖着了....心,被多多的话语遮盖了.....不愿再透露多半点.....

话,被人一句一句推翻了....动作,被一个一个看穿了.....

回忆,被你奪去了....

留下的是什么?

只有那"雨"的心情...........

独自.......流泪......与那大雨一并落下.....

The best essay....Just for a laugh ...

The innocent in her eyes have carved a deep scar in my heart. It was not saddening though. Having admired her for so many years, I've noticed and realised she was my most perfect angel. Her silky smooth hair , cherry red lips and rossy cheeck suit her petite frame perfectly.
When I was about to reprimand a student at his wrong doing, she went passed me. Wanting to ensure that she was adhering to the school rules , I decided to take a cool glance on her and stoped her from walking further. All of a sudden, she turned and look straight into my eyes. Beautiful ! That was the only thing that come across my mind at the moment. I haven't seen such a girl with such a great temperament. I imidiately felt the chemistry and blood storming in my vessels. Perhaps , it was just me who felt that way. I was nearly dumb founded when she asked what was wrong with her. I felt embarrased as I couldn't utter a single word . Then she left . From that day onwards, I didn't see her anymore. She just like a cluster of cloud, dissapearing from my eyes.
I had never forgotten about her. She had left a deep memory inside me untill I met her back recently in a school club. I was shocked! I just couldn't believe my eyes that I was looking across the room was my angel. God had brought me back my angel to me. In her present, I felt really restless. I was not me , I felt so nervous each time went for the practise. I couldn't explained I had felt that way but it was a special kind of feelings. Yes ! It was LOVE! Although I was just clapping one hand. I felt blissful ! Time went by and we got closer. I could vividly remember that the first practise . She was about 3 meter away from me and at that one moment, when she was 3 inches away from me, my heat beat profusely. I felt in love with her.
One day, I gathered all my courage to confess my love to her. I texted her and I clearly remembered what I wrote to her. It was about a-hundred-words sms. I waited for her replied inpatiently. During that time, a lot of thought played in my mind. REJECTION ? ACCEPTANCE? That was the longest moment in my life. An hour later, I jump off my bed when I received an sms from her. I was so eager to read the sms. The next moment I realised was that my phone were broken into pieces and I scattered around on the floor. " we are normal friends. and I would never love you for god sake" My heart collapsed just like the WTC. I lost my soul, I lost my mind. I was in a total rejection.
The following day, I met her again in my school and that was the first time I felt so embarrassed in my life. HAHA>.<

寒冷

寒冷的夜晚...
你最先想起谁呢?最想做些什么事情呢?
今日的夜晚...好冷,好冷.....冷得有如当日你对我说的话一样.....在这一个寒冷的夜晚....你是否会为你自己披上一层暖暖的棉被呢?是否能安稳的入睡呢? 注意自己的身子...别让自己着凉了....因为关心你的人会为你感到心痛.....
或许那个人不会是我.....

在那寒冷的夜里....
我独自徘徊在家门前的十字路口....回想起当日的那个我....感受这冰冷的夜晚...会下雨吗?不知道....
只知道恨不得将自己反锁在自己的世界.....不再走出来....寒冷的夜仿佛反映出我的心情.....好冷,好冷...想找个棉被为自己盖上....但,这谈何容易?
高处遥望....望着一男一女,坐在那公园的石橙上...他们是否感到寒冷?我想不会吧....爱情的热火已为他们取暖...
我慢慢一人走向公园,慢慢的回想....是什么样的一个夜晚....你才会想起我?不会吧.....
在我的思路...满满都是你了....寒冷的雨慢慢落下.....轻轻的打在我的身上......
哦.....下雨了.....都忘记了呢....
但好像还蛮开心的....在雨中独自一人漫步.....泪?雨水?分不清了.....

寒冷的夜.....没有星星......没有月光.....没有你........

你是否已入眠了呢?是否发着美梦了呢?
这....都象是不关我的事.....
对....这都不关我的事.....
在这样寒冷的夜....你想的只会是你爱的那个人.....
尽管.....

那个人并不是我.....

月光恋

美丽的倒影...
静止的河流...
清爽的风儿...
摇晃的树叶...
悲伤的人儿...

在那美丽的倒影....双双走过那静止的河流....清爽的风儿不停的吹着...摇摆的树叶渐渐飘落....悲伤的人儿独自蹲在小溪旁.....看着那美丽的倒影.
你是否就在河流的另一端? 我们究竟何时才会相遇?
今日的月光显得特别明亮....浮现在河流的倒影也显得清晰....望着那清澈的河流....望着那清晰的倒影,心里一阵感慨.... 想着.....

你现在在那里?是不是也在看着这么美丽的月光倒影发呆呢?
你现在在做些什么呢?是不是也在遥望着那美丽的月光呢?
当你也在看着同一个月光时,想起的会是什么呢?

独自一人徘徊在十字路口路口....一步一步的往前方迈进....
当那月光显得明亮时,当那双双处于热恋的恋人都静坐在那美丽又动人的河流前...会是什么感觉呢?那一夜,显得特别不一样....凄美的爱情...分隔两地的恋人,都在遥望着那美丽的月亮.....
当....你就坐在那河流的旁边...是什么感觉呢?看着自己的倒影浮现在河流前,是否想起自己那流逝已久的那个你呢?
爱你的那个人是否也跟你一样.....
看清自己了吗? 是否变得和当年不一样了?
弯弯的月亮让你回想起什么吗?清晰的光线有让你看到那个爱你的人吗?

当你在看着那美丽的月亮时, 爱你的那个人也在跟你看着同一个月亮.....
只是地点不一样罢了......
但某年某月的某一天....这对恋人一定会再度重逢
看着同一个月亮, 同一个月光.....

梦与心 2

相信.....我

不会再有开心的滋味了.....不会再有对人谈心事的感觉了...
所有的一切....发生的好像一场梦....一场短暂的梦...
你不会知道...被一个你最喜欢的人刻意的逃避....是一种什么样的感觉....因为,是痛,是伤.....已经分不清楚了....
但应该都一样吧....世界像被冻结了一样.....再也无眼耳鼻舌的感觉了....因为这些感觉都一一不存在了....不会再有了....

没有了心,什么都是虚幻的....什么都是死的. 心死了,一切都是假的....真实世界已不再了...没有东西是值得开心快乐的....存有的只会是......痛与伤....
或者这都只是梦......

逃避现实,不去接受,不去了解,假装不知道.....假装看不到.....难道就是我一直梦寐以求的梦吗???难道真的是我心里想的吗?长期的爱情洗礼....还不能接受的一种感觉吗? 放手吧....可能会好过些...但为何我就是放不了手....?开心,不开心....已经变得不那么重要了...在我内心深处...所有的东西都不重要了...什么都没了. 什么都不重要了!!!!为什么明明答应要给予的放弃和忘记....却还是做不到???为何不想忘记,却又得强逼自己去忘记?为什么?为什么?真的该忘了吗?不再想起她了?这样真的会感到好过些吗?非得将你压抑在心里吗??

我还能做什么呢?就只有在这样的环境慢慢的继续睡吧,继续发我的美梦....

之前的一切一切....
都只是我一直在发的美梦.......
不想醒来
但为何这个梦会将我的心连在一起........

深爱

看来....

我真的改变了....变得不再对任何事情都感兴趣了....
变得爱把心事藏在心底...变得不爱说话了....
这些突然来的改变,到底该如何是好....突然发觉自己变得不再是熟悉的那个自己....发觉自己变得好陌生....

心里已满满的被填满了....不能容许别人装入了,就连一粒沙都进不了我的心里了.....好纳闷.....该如何是好呢?原本以为到处走走会让我更容易忘了你....但我竟没发现.....每当我越想忘了你,我反而更忘不了你....或许吧....不知道....但我可以很肯定的说,我不曾爱一个人爱得那么深和久过.....真的..不知该做什么事情的心情真的很差,我已失去了目标.....
我发觉了.....我竟然....会.......
不论在什么地方...不论什么时间....不论什么事情....我竟然想的都是你,你的脸一直浮现在我脑海中....这....我一直都没发现.....
直到....

今天....
我才发现....我在百货商场走着走着....看着无数的女子...但没有一个能及得上你....看着情侣们双双走过....发觉到自己的可悲.....我该如何是好...我曾试着忘了你.....真的....我真的恨不得忘了你....但,我做不到....我真的....以前每次注意人的我变得渐渐看不到人了....不是我看不到...而是我不想再看了....因为我的世界内找不到一个比你更好的人,找不到更美丽的晴天了.....

如果有人现在能站出来告诉我他比我更爱你......
我肯定不会将你让给他....
因为....
不可能会有人比我爱你爱得更深.........
肯定.....

如果

我真的只想问......

你...
最近过得好吗?依然是那么害怕吗....
我实在是无话可说....而我也相信我没这个资格说.....
看来....我当日不应该那样做的....我真的很后悔了....只想求你一个原谅....每天都对着电话,等你一声原谅.....多么希望你的名字能浮现在我电话的前面....但,这都已经是不可能的......
在你眼中,或许我是一个变态狂.....也或许是个无聊人....更或许是一个废人....这我都不否认....因为我或许真的是那样的人也说不定.....可能,你已不会再来看我所写的东西了....可能,我们连朋友都不再是了....可能我们以后见到面都不再认识了....可能...可能......
我又能做些什么呢?因为这些都不在我控制以内.....我不想自暴自弃....但我又不得不那么做...因为我可能会因自暴自弃而找回我自己...或许吧...当年我实在是不应该遇见你.....难道我就要蒙着眼睛....捂着耳朵.....做一些我认为对的但我不会开心的东西?难道我就要一直写下去....一直一直的写下去........?

当时你告诉过我...做人要开心和幼稚.....但现在的我...一点都不开心....也不知要对谁幼稚.....
任性是好的吗?我自问从小到大...没对任何人任性过.....但我就没想到....我一任性,便会造成人家的困扰.....真的.....我还能有明天吗?我的世界还会有晴天吗?

如果当日我没说,我们今天会否还是朋友??你还会是我谈心事的对象吗.....
如果当日我没说,我们今天是不是还能打招呼?还能不能说话.....
如果当日我舍弃我的感情,会不会对你我都比较好受呢?

我只希望我喜欢的人....能快快乐乐的生活....不要有任何的烦恼与困扰.....

哪怕是要牺牲我也愿意......

下个世纪

逃避之5.......

今天
依然是孤军愤战....好孤独哦.....
被人耍了....一个人....慢慢慢慢的走回家....行人路上,没人看我一眼....仿佛是被人冷落一样,心情就象下雪般的寒冷...
我...显得狼狈不堪....一想起我的遭遇....便想把头放得底底的...不知要说是幸运还是惨....
好无聊哦....生活没有朝气....象没有了灵魂似的....幸好我身上带有手机....可以充当听歌的用途...但我竟没发觉,我越是听歌,越是感到伤心....
"有一种预感,爱就要离岸,所有回忆却慢慢碎成片段....不能期望,爱总是苦断...我只想要你最后的答案....有一种预感,想挽回太难,对你还有无可救要的期盼....我坐立难安.....我会永远守在灯火燃烧的地方...."

"我偷偷看着你,偷偷的隐藏着自己......如果你愿意一层一层一层的拨开我的心,你会发现,你会讶抑,你是我最压抑最深处的秘密....如果你愿意一层一层一层的拨开我的心,你会心酸,你会流泪...只要你能听到和看到我的全心全意......"

"爱你的那一个,想你的那一个...谁才是你爱情中的伯乐...放弃了这一个,然后等待着小一个....最后哪一个是你最舍不得?感谢不能让别人来说...你给我的,他们是做不到的...."

"如果我先放弃爱情,我的痛会不会不药而愈.....看伤心不能痊愈....我始终相信爱你的勇气....看伤心慢慢痊愈...我会好好的安慰我自己....."

这些歌曲触动了我心灵的最深处.....我竟没想到我会是那么的伤心.....
这到底是怎么样的一个感觉......
为何首首歌都好像很贴切?
为何我眼中偏偏只看得到你???
可能吧......在你眼里...我只是个....恐怖的人....是一个会令你害怕的人.....
那我......
只好等下个世纪了.....

(个人想法.....不强逼您们阅读)

路人甲

(事先声明.....这只是纯粹个人想法, 想不想看是你们的自由,也没有想得罪人的意思.....我被逼一定要写这些,因为我不想让人觉得我是在强逼他.....)

逃避之5 天气晴朗 心情无比伤 心情天气: 雨天

知道.......又能怎样
感觉得到......又能怎样
看得到......又能怎样
听得到.......又能怎样

这些能让你得到什么???满足感,快乐,开心???
可是, 我....有吗?当我得到了这些东西...我得到和获得的是什么??? 我.....不觉得快乐,不觉得开心,不觉得有什么满足感.....但我得到你们每个都得不到的东西----伤和痛
为什么我的倾心会换来逃避?为什么连最起码的尊严都不留给我?为什么连道歉的机会都没有?为什么快乐都离我越来越远?为什么我连想大声叫出来的勇气都没有?为什么?为什么? 我看得到,感觉得到....但这有什么用呢?名利,地位....又有什么用呢? 当时忘了是谁告诉我 " 一物换一物"....对,一物换一物....那就是我用真心换来自己的伤心与痛苦.....
我不要求什么,因为我也没资格要求什么.....我只要恢复到之前的生活....难道这样都不能有吗?可能我太小题大做了....但如果你站在我的立场,你会是什么样的一个感觉???!!! 我能做什么?什么都做不了......那种无能的感觉,你...你...你...你...你...能了解吗??
可能我就是太可怕了...可怕到人都不敢接近我了....
破裂的心难道就不能补得好吗?
心痛的感觉难到就不能不药而愈?

钢琴老师依然是充满朝气....我就象是一个无灵魂的空躯体....傻傻的站在一旁听那动人的旋律一首首的飘过....我....今天依然面对着无法弹钢琴的命运....技巧....熟悉的琴键好像离我越来越远了....我感到很陌生.....就象......
我还有机会再象以前那样信心的弹奏吗? 我......T.T

太多太多的小事同时发生了.....但偏偏有些小事却让我历历在目,象是歌曲的播放....但听歌者的心情与地点都不一样了....朗朗上口的歌词已变得陌生了....开心的心情已不再了.....
向来我都蛮喜欢来学校的...原因是.......
但现在我已不喜欢了....每天想起要过这样的一种生活.....还是不要的好....
我到底做了什么事情???为什么连看到打声招呼都不能....为何搞到要互相逃避对方才可以.....为什么看到都必须假装看不见....这是为什么啊?刻意不走会碰面的路...到底是为什么啊?就连最起码的尊严都没了吗????就连最起码的勇气都没了吗?
我都无怨无悔的把所有事扛起....你们还想我怎样?难道你们真的想看我死才开心???

或许是我想太多了吧.....如果是这样...真的是不好意思.....当我是一个路人甲便可以了....
我愿意一人承担责任......
不须任何人的同情......
下一个世纪.......还会有机会吗?

好人/坏人

哇,我又再次有感而发了....爽!!!

唉呀....想想自己......两个字,失败.....为何我会那么说呢?当然是有我的原因的啦....想不想看是你们家的事...因为我已不想再勉强别人了....

就从我睡觉开始吧......当时, 我边睡觉,边想东西....突然我想起了某些小事(哇,你还真强,睡觉都还可以想东西)....没有啦, 就是在一杀哪我想起的某些小事想跟大家分享.....我在想,好人和坏人应该怎样分辩?好人是不是那种是常帮助人,对人很好,很受人欢迎的那种人啊???这样,坏人又应该怎样分呢?是不是那种每天一开口便是坏话,做的都是人们认为的坏事且不受人欢迎的那种人? OK,好!
这样我问你们啦,"好人"是不是都讲一些你们认为好听和适合耳朵听的话,做一些你们认为好的事情?你们可否想过,这些好听,好看的东西是很虚伪的? 因为这些"好人"只是要在人们面前展现他们好的一面,但可否有人想过他们的另一面呢? 当然,你们是不会去想的!!!因为他们实在是太会隐瞒了.....
反之,坏人呢?坏人说的话都是不好听的对吗?做的都是你们认为的坏事吗?? 好,那你们可有想过一句名言:忠言逆耳?? 没想到吧!那是当然的咯....因为好人都将坏人摸黑已展现自己的优点...你们哪有可能还会看到坏人的好呢?你们只会认为好人做的都是好事..... 你们会认为那个人是坏人是因为你们根本没看到坏人们的用心就一口咬定他做的没一件是好事....坏人在背后默默的做好事, 让"好人"们拿功劳...而好人习惯在多人面前展现他的才能,将不好的事推给坏人好让自己可以下台,遇到这种问题,不会反抗的坏人只有默默承受.....这种人,难道是你们所说的"好人",你们的英雄???

当然的啦, 因为好人所做的都是好事....当然不会有人指责他们咯...因为在人们眼里,好人做的大坏事只是小事,而坏人做的小坏事, 便是人们的大坏事!!!!!

自己分辩什么是好和坏吧......哈哈
好人,坏人....你们要当哪一个???
这纯粹是个人想法....喜不喜欢由你....

战书

人心不可测.....
表面强颜欢笑..
实际是笑里藏刀..... 高招,高招!!!
所以说我还是劝你们小心"小人",这一类型的人物....分分钟使你丧命....可怜啊,可怜.....可怜是因为想防都防不到...防也防不了.....可以做的只有安静的祈祷那个被害的人不是你们吧......但当你们被害的时候....会是什么感觉呢???我倒是蛮想知道的....知道痛的时候记得要找我...因为我会帮你们办一个漂漂亮亮的风光葬礼......哇哈哈哈哈哈.....知道我的恐怖了吧.....最好你们是别惹到我!!!!

今天,心情算蛮平伏的....没什么大事.....小事却多得好象山一样多....无聊....不过也没什么啦...看穿人性的眼睛好象又从新展现了....好开心哦.....好久都没有那么棒的一个感觉了...那些被我看穿心理的人你们最好小心一点....因为我也不知道我会做出什么傻事.....你们拭目以待吧. 被讨厌就被讨厌吧...我不会再为你们的无聊感受伤脑筋了....因为你们给我的实在是不值得我再为你们烦恼了...真的是太感谢你们....我一定永生难忘的....但不要害怕,也不要惊讶.....怎样说我都不是你们说玩就能玩的对象....我现在就跟你们这些"小人"们下战书....我倒是要看看,到底是你们死,还是我活???是你们逼我入绝境....我一次一次的放过你们,不过你们不单不要放过我,反而反过来处处陷害我......但愿你们不要太快被我玩死吧....哈哈哈.

是你们逼我把我丑陋的恶魔面具戴上的.....到时不要后悔........哈哈哈哈哈哈
我的自尊已破灭...感谢你们.....
感谢你们让我那看穿人心的眼再次展现
感谢你们让我再次点燃我的火
感谢你们让我做出改变
感谢你们给我那么好的礼物
感谢你们让我可以开始有战斗的感觉
感谢你们.........

顺带一提....我不会那么容易就给你们着些"小人"们打倒的....哇哈哈哈哈哈